Journal Entry

[caersidydd]

I just spoke to my grandmother. She didn't sound too good and said that she felt "numb". I'm really worried now. I was always really close to my grandmother until my sisters came down from New York some years ago and I got into some conflicts with their children which made me opt to stay away from my grandmother's house where they were all living. After that I didn't get to spend much time with her and even after they left I couldn't really get back into the habit of going to see her as often as I did. She's been in and out of the hospital lately and I tried to spend some time with her when I was kidnapped and taken home by my mother some weeks ago, but my mom started whining that I wasn't taking care of my dog because I was staying at my grandmother's. I don't know. I hope she'll be okay.

Anyway, if I'm not around or am otherwise unresponsive it's because I'm in a corner crying and/or pondering mortality, god, and the purpose of life.